While I'm Waiting

http://youtu.be/Bb7TSGptd3Y So while running a 12 miler this weekend the song above played over again on the iPod and it hit me (literally, started crying in Todd Park while running--quite a site). The recent news in the delay of our adoption wasn't as much as a punishment for a "sin" I thought I had committed, but more of a way of God saying--I will not give you more then you can handle, however you have more strength, love and trust in me then you think you do. This realization has changed my outlook on the recent delay. I try not to dwell on things I could have done differently (i.e. maybe I shouldn't have bought those outfits for him already, maybe I was too boastful about his coming home), but focus more on making a difference in the lives of children I can now-at home with Kenny or at work. A very wise man at work reminds me daily that it my only fault in this recent challenge wasn't being the excited, expectant mother--it was the expecting this to happen on my timeline-not HIS. We have an amazing Life Group that meets Sunday nights-their prayers and support has been a source of strength for both Rob and I. Our friends and family have shown me strength and support that I never could have imagined. These messages fills my cup over-and helps me find the strength to recognize that this has been a delay-not an end our adoption story. We continue to wait for Friday-court date #2. Thankfully we have heard that all 9 families we traveled with have the "letter" from MOWA (Ministry of Women's Affairs) in the file-we pray that the letter is one of support, and the judge grants us the words we wait for again "This child is now yours". We will keep you all posted-and thank you again for the support and prayers

Jessica

***Thank you Krista for this last week****

...but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings of eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31